Bye 2017

For everyone, I think 2017 was honestly crappy. It was. But I also believe that it’s given me a whole new change and perspective on life, and myself. I’ve had so many new experiences and met so many new people. I’ve come to realizations about myself and others. I’ve reconnected with people and I lost others.

I know that this year generally was “hard” and the “worst” for everyone, but I think it was the most changing for myself. Lately, I have not been so great when it comes to posting my poetry and other things, I know that the Christmas break is one part of the procrastination. However, I’ve been experiencing some emotional things in my life. Mentally I feel as if I get depressed, sad, and the loss of motivation. Sometimes I’ll be mentally drained that it’s too hard or too much to do anything. It’s something I struggle with a lot and I usually don’t talk about. I get self-conscious and I worry about making something great and good to place in a public space. I don’t want to label it or make it seem like I’m the only one with this problem. I know other people go through that. Even now I’m not fully explaining how I feel and other anxiety issues I have. But that’s for another time. I think these emotions and stressfulness has a lot to do with the way the world is now. College scars us 18 to 25 year olds, and exerts so much stress on us. And the answer to that is just to “deal with it” or “That’s how life is”. No, it doesn’t have to be like that. 

Maybe 2018 can give us a new start to make something wonderful in life. To make life not shitty for ourselves. That is one thing I want to do for myself. 2017 has taken so much from me and given so much back. And I want to reflect on the great things that have happened in 2017.

First off 2017 gave me the chance to travel outside the states. I had the wonderful opportunity to go visit my Dad and my step Mom in Okinawa, Japan. I still can’t believe I got to experience a culture like Japan’s. To this day I still miss it and I can’t wait to go back this summer. I know for sure we’re going to go to Thailand or another country for 2 weeks. I recommend that everyone should go experience a new culture and travel someday in their lives. Everyone needs to leave the US for a vacation at some point. I got to taste the difference of the air, feel the sun’s warmth with a different welcome.

I know I met my boyfriend in 2016, but in 2017 he has always been there with me. I cant think of a time when we were apart. He’s made me realize some things about myself and has brought out the greatness in me. I know this may be sappy but it’s true that someone you care about really does bring out the best in you. He’s my punching bag, he’s my teddy bear, he’s the ear that I talk to, he’s the person that makes me laugh so hard I start crying and I forget all the bad things that happened. I hope I’ve done the same for him as much as he’s done for me. This brings me to my wonderful roommates that I lived with in 2017 and the many people I met through them. They brought me out of my introverted shell and given me a whole new relationship with myself and others.

Three highlights of the year would have to be the fact that I got to see The Garden, Mac Demarco, and The Shins all in this year. YES, I DID! I have to say that I’m proud of myself for buying those tickets. It is so fucking amazing that they all decided to stop by Austin to do a show. It was like the Gods of Music smiled down at me and said, “Hollie you deserve this”. This goes to show that 2017 did have something to put up.

In the second half of 2017 gave me the chance to do what I want in a college. I gave back myself the chance to write, which is one of my greatest passions. It’s the main tool I use to cope with things in my life. One of my greatest fears is losing my memory which is why I write in a journal.  I have so many thoughts and words to say and I found that writing was the way to channel all the sounds in my head. This blossomed my nick for writing poetry.

From what I can remember this has been my 2017 in a wrap-up. I’m sure a lot of other stuff has happened but I’m going to move on from that. Starting off…I want to be better at writing poetry and with music. I did a song recently, fully done and cleaned. I’ll decide when to post it on here. But yes, that is one new thing that has led up to this new year. I will make more songs soon! Sorry if this post seemed like a ramble.

I hope you all have entered 2018 with some grace, kisses, love, and happiness. And I wish for it to continue on.

H

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Okinawa World

Hello!

My morning/night was pretty weird I kept waking up and I think I may have gone through sleep paralysis. It actually happened twice that night. I ended up waking at 8:30 and around 11:40 we were all dressed and ready to go start the day at Okinawa World! Okinawa world is a theme park that explores Okinawa’s culture and showcases a snake show and even and underground natural cave. They had a bunch of little shops and areas to get food and refreshments. They had glass blowing, brewery, jewelry, fresh fruits market, and clothing-some even died from natural sugar cane stalks.

One thing that was common was that I was extremely hot and sweaty. The weather of course is very humid, but at one point the temperature dropped and it started raining. Luckily I was under a tarp watching a show of some rational dancers and singers. At one point one of the performers brought me up to the stage and made me inmate their dance until by my surprise I was bitten by the ancient Shisa Dog, known that a bite gives good lucky in your life. It was so nerve racking and surprising that I felt like I was going to stumble. I wish I could have gotten picture of that performance but we were allowed to take pictures of the main show. But I did take pictures of a lot of other things I saw.

These are some of the pictures I took in the cave


It was really nice to be underground in the cave. When you walked in the air felt cooler and all of the marble was dripping cool water everywhere you went. The whole place was damp and you would need to be extra careful where you stepped so you would not fall into the rocks or water. It felt so much better than being up top in the hotbox weather. After the cave we went up and looked around all of the little shops. I didn’t buy anything because tomorrow we’re are going to Kokusai street where there is a bunch of shops and things similar to what was in Okinawa World.

Here are some other pictures of me being a goof

Today was really amazing and eventful, I could not believe what I was seeing. It still seems very surreal to me, which is why I taken so many pictures, even pictures of myself to believe that I really was there.

If you like this post give it a like or comment, If you wish to see something poetry or music related please let me know! I want to write for all of you! Let me know how your summers are going! I wish every one a Good Morning, a Good Evening, and a Goodnight!

H

 

 

WHERE AM I?

I am currently in Okinawa, Japan!

It has been a few days since I have posted anything but in my defense it’s been a tiring trip going from Texas to Japan. So in reality I am a day ahead than those in certain part of the United States, usually my fellow Texans!

The plane ride wasn’t too bad, but I will say it was extremely tiring. Just thinking about it makes me feel tired. I watched a lot of movies and tv shows and I slept some of the way. One of the flights was 12 hours, from Dallas to Tokyo. Arriving in the Tokyo Air port was so nerve racking! I had no idea where to go or what to go. But I managed to make it through by following signs and people. I got my first stamp on my passport! So I hopped on to another flight to Okinawa which took about 2 hours and a half. I felt so weird and tired, especially because of the time change. Also, I was sweating so much from the humidity.

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This was the TV that I had for myself. But plane ride was still really tiring. But at least I got threes meals! The bathroom was right behind me which I’m not sure if that was a good thing or not. People always got up to go to the restroom, but I never had to get in a line because of my quick access.

So far it has been completely surreal with that I am seeing and experiencing. Theres so much to see and so much to do. I can’t wait to explore more and more of this beautiful place. It has been one of my dreams to go to Japan, now I can cross it off my list. This trips makes me so excited to plan other trips in the future.

These are some pictures from my first full day

I hope everyone is having a great and safe summer! I will post more of my adventures and such! For more pictures go check out my Instagram with the same name as the site. Here is one last picture of me by the water at a place called American Village!

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Life Update

Last time I talked It was about my travel and passport issues. There is good news! I got my passport corrected and I also got a refund from the government for their mistake! I talked to my dad about when to set a date for travel and we decided on July 10, which is surprisingly close. In exactly one week until I board a plane with about four transfers. It is really nerve racking but exciting at the same time. It is finally going to happen and I can’t believe. I have no other words to describe how I’m feeling. It does feel surreal.

The summer so far has been uneventful and honestly I can not wait until school starts. Summer makes me feel sluggish, tired, and unproductive. I don’t think I can stand not having work to do or walking around campus. I have been afraid lately that I would gain weight during the summer, but I think I have actually lost weight because of the lack of eating. Don’t worry, I’m okay! I normally don’t eat as much, but being stuck in a house with no much food is part of the problem.

On another point of new news is I got a hair cut. I did something I told myself I wouldn’t do which is BANGS. I got good compliments so I think they aren’t that bad. I just can’t wait till my hair gets longer, I always end up cutting it or trimming or picking a new style. I vow to not cut again and to wait out the waylay hair will grow. Although I like my new cut, I don’t like having to do my hair in the morning. Literally in my situation and layered hair, I can not have slept in hair unless it’s in a bun or pony tail. I should invest in some hair softener…

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Besides that everything is changing a bit in my life. Some personal things I am going through. Having hard times and emotions are rolling over me. Sometimes it is really difficult but I try to look for the good, or I drown it out by listening to music. The usual fixes.

I hope everyones summer is going great!

H