I have been circling a question through my head. It is the one question that we all face in our coming adult years. What do you want to do?
That question can apply to a lot of meanings. What do you want to do right now? What do you want to do in four years? What do you want to do with yourself?
What do you want to BE?
I do and do not have an answer to that question. All that I know is that I want to be doing something what is from my decision. I want to be able to give myself my own options and I am thinking through a college perspective. I want an apartment, I want to have money or some sort of income, I want an internship, and I want a career that I picked. And so far I am currently working on those things.
The reason why I am writing about this now is because today I got an email from professor I won’t no loner have since I changed my major. So I had to explain to them that I was not going to do their class again for this fall. I also had a talk to my boyfriend about what he wants to do after the four years. Whether or not to do another career choice added on to what he already wants to do.
And that made me think.
What do I want to do when I get to that point of my life?
Right now I changed to be only a English Major. I also added a teaching certificate for the future. But now that I think about it I don’t want to get that certificate and be done with my career. I want to WRITE. I love to write so much and I want to write books. I just don’t know what or where to start. I love poetry but I also want to practice my prose. Not only do I want to be a creative writer but I also want to be a versatile one, where I can write articles and express opinions and issues and reviews. I want to be the best I can be at writing. It is my own way of express and enjoyment of who I am as a person, what my voice is trying to say.
I do and I don’t know what is going to happen.
But I do know that what I’m doing now I want to work hard at it.
What do you think? Where do you think you are in your life? Do you know what you want to do?
Much Love and Support
I am currently in Okinawa, Japan!
It has been a few days since I have posted anything but in my defense it’s been a tiring trip going from Texas to Japan. So in reality I am a day ahead than those in certain part of the United States, usually my fellow Texans!
The plane ride wasn’t too bad, but I will say it was extremely tiring. Just thinking about it makes me feel tired. I watched a lot of movies and tv shows and I slept some of the way. One of the flights was 12 hours, from Dallas to Tokyo. Arriving in the Tokyo Air port was so nerve racking! I had no idea where to go or what to go. But I managed to make it through by following signs and people. I got my first stamp on my passport! So I hopped on to another flight to Okinawa which took about 2 hours and a half. I felt so weird and tired, especially because of the time change. Also, I was sweating so much from the humidity.
This was the TV that I had for myself. But plane ride was still really tiring. But at least I got threes meals! The bathroom was right behind me which I’m not sure if that was a good thing or not. People always got up to go to the restroom, but I never had to get in a line because of my quick access.
I was SWEATING
So far it has been completely surreal with that I am seeing and experiencing. Theres so much to see and so much to do. I can’t wait to explore more and more of this beautiful place. It has been one of my dreams to go to Japan, now I can cross it off my list. This trips makes me so excited to plan other trips in the future.
These are some pictures from my first full day
I hope everyone is having a great and safe summer! I will post more of my adventures and such! For more pictures go check out my Instagram with the same name as the site. Here is one last picture of me by the water at a place called American Village!
So from what I see, I believe that my passport issue will finally work out. I have plans to go to Japan but my only problem was that when I finally got my passport, they misspelled my last name. Yup, of course they would mistake the “C” for and “L”. When I went to the post office it felt really difficult because they didn’t even have an employee that could explain well for what I had to do in order to change my last name. But I ended up getting a form I had to fill out and everything went ok. I had to pay 74 dollars to get the passport expedited so I could get it in time within or less than 2 weeks. Hopefully everything is working out with that issue. When I was paying for the package to be sent the man at the register asked if I was getting married because he was curious as to why I was changing my last name. It is very rare to get forms to change last names. I said I wasn’t changing it, I WAS CORRECTING THEIR MISTAKE. I didn’t say it rude but I was pretty disappointed that my plans get delays over their mistake. If they were unsure they should have checked my birth certificate that had in their hands.
Now, my next plan is to get my military ID and hopefully they could correct my birthday. I am not in the military, my father is and that is the area where we will be saying in Japan, and I need the ID so I am allowed on the base. Stupid people who are in charge of my paper work put the wrong birth month on my ID, so now when I go to the doctors for Insurance it is a very difficult process to get what I need. The only luck I ever had with ID’s is when I did my divers license. The best to decent picture and correct information.
That is what I have been going through. Nothing exciting ever happens around here in my home town, and currently I am using the internet at the local library to speak to you all. This past week has been very draining to my health. Lately I have been having bad stomach pains and eating makes me sick and bloated. I lose my appetite and then I gain it back again. Sometimes I feel very down and incredibly bored in my mothers house and I feel useless and unmotivated at times to write or plan for the blog. Don’t worry, I got back up again. I have been so stressed out here, even more mentally and emotionally stressed than I was In school. I think my summer plans next year will consist of me staying in Austin and perhaps getting a job, travel more with friends and taking trips with my father, and this time we’ll be able to take my boyfriend :). That brings me on another note, it will be a year soon with him, isn’t it crazy how time flies so fast?
Day 30: A song that reminds of myself or represents me.
Hello! I am sorry I missed a day in the 30 days of Songs challenge. Yesterday I moved out of my dorm and arrived back in my hometown for the summer. I also do not have any access to internet at my house, but don’t worry I’ll manage. I always manage. It might just be difficult to post through my phone only. So again I apologize for not posting soon or recently. I have been enjoying the time I have been back at home
So this is the last day of the challenge. At least I answered all of them, I did skip a day here and there but I did answer and I had a great time at it. It was really interesting to see what songs I would pick and I tried hard not to stick to a pattern and really venture out what songs I liked. If I were to pick a song that represents me… I think I would have to go with:
Venus as a Boy by Björk
This song has so much meaning to me. This actually reminds me a lot of the years I would listen to Björk all the time everyday. I believe I have listened to every single song she has, and I’m being serious. I feel this song represents me on different levels, my innocences, my adult awakening, sexuality, love, passion,emotion,empathy, and just this weird side of me that some people fail to notice or accept.
Again I am sorry for not posting as much, I will try to get better and figure out a weekly plan.
Give it a listen, give music a chance.
Day 29: A song you remember from your childhood
Hmm hmm hmm hmm. I really don’t know or remember songs from childhood. Music was just everywhere for me. There is not really one band or artist, or song that I could name. So here is a collection of old Hollie tunes. Some of these also count as my preteen years, as that was my childhood also.
I’ve been Tired by The Pixies, Of course the Pixies are always in my heart and childhood.
It’s Oh so Quiet by Björk, my Dad showed me this song when I was little and since then I have become a huge Björk fan.
Wuthering Heights by Kate Bush, I have no idea how I heard of Kate Bush, I think my Dad showed her to me but honestly it was a random find for me and I love her voice no matter what people think.
How Soon is Now? by The Smiths, Of course 😉
Sunday Bloody Sunday by U2
Music of my childhood reminds me a lot about car rides and music blasting in the speakers. I pretty thankful for my parents for giving me the gift of such great music. Most of these songs are older than me and aren’t even in my own time era, but I love them.
Give it a listen, give music a chance.
So… I have a puppy and her name is Matilda. She is currently six months right now and is a huge hassle to handle sometimes.
She is a black pug and was the only one out of the litter to survive.
The reason why I named her Matilda is because of the movie Leon the Professional. And I find it funny how the character in the movie fits well with my dog. Little and feisty!
She was born in September and I received her on Thanksgiving in 2015. And it’s been so busy with her. It’s hard at times to watch her because I am always busy or outside of the house. I feel bad all the time when I can’t watch her or enjoy being with her because she never stops moving. But she sure does love the out doors and playing, she still bites so I need to take that habit away.
Funny thing is, she does not like to be pet on the head. It takes forever to get her calm and comfortable to let you pet her head. Most of the time she tries to bite you! She not mean or anything, pugs are naturally hyper all the time. I know Matilda is just hyped on love and excitement and is to young to know any better.
But! Work is still needed to be done with her. So far she can obey some thing but I want her to grown to where she’ll be calm enough to walk around the house.
She’s my little Swiss chocolate roll, and I love her.
Wish me luck on keeping her calm! 🐥