Stage 1

 

I strive and strive

And after I fake my way

there is still a crack and shapes my mould.

I can only perceive the heat that burns

and ice never seems to clam me down

maybe lavender might do the trick.

And lather it over the bathe

but still the skin cracks

and fills in

Must be from the tears and continued

collapse

 

H

 

 

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IT the Movie

IT the Movie: WTF did I just watch

This has been one of the best movies I have seen so far in 2017. I can’t really remember what other movies I have seen that came out this year. Perhaps Guardians Of The Gallaxy is up there. But what has been trucking through my mind is the thought of Pennywise the dancing clown and the Losers clubs unity to defeat him and end the traumatizing terrors they face commonly through out the whole movie.

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Playlist 7: Something About You

I realized that it has been a very long time since I have made a playlist of songs for you. I am so sorry for that! It honestly slipped my mind and it never thought about again. Now, every time I sit down with my laptop open and a fresh blank blog post- if I have writers block I know what to write/make- a playlist!

Since the summer I have come upon some new music. The excitement of concerts coming up this October has gotten me hyped for music. All of these are sort of in the same genre, this not the only music I listen to but it has been circling in my daily music plays. This is what I have for you and I hope you enjoy it :).

Where This Flower Blooms by Tyler The Creator

Amor de Siempre by CUCO

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SOTW #17

Good Afternoon Guys. This past week has been incredibly busy with readings and classes and other activities. I have been wanting to write more about other things which is soon to come!

This weeks Song(s) of the Week is

Sea Bird by Alessi Brothers

And some hip-hop with

Palace/Curse by The Internet

Hope you enjoy these groves

Give it a listen, give music a chance.

 

H

SOTW #16

Hey, so this next song(s) of the week will be…

Tyrant by Kali Uchis

Kali Uchis is a Goddess, I recommend listening to her. She also appears a lot in Tyler The Creators work.

The next song takes us back to the 80s

Head Over Heels by Tears for Fears

Please listen to this song if you really want something good. It is well worth

Let me know if you liked any of these selections. Comment or like below.

Give it a listen, give music a chance.

H

Starting the Semester

So I am officially moved in to my apartment with six other people. It really isn’t that all bad. I like everyone and so far things have been good. I am really nervous and excited about school. Im going to be so busy this semester and incredible independent. I feel that this year there is more academic work for me, honestly it is. More reading and writing, which is a good thing. This is a test for my ability and skills and how I will work it all out by myself. But hey, I’ve done it once I can do it again.

I will say…the best thing about this semester is the fact that I have an apartment. It is so much better than living in the dorm. I just got so sick of always being on the campus at all times. I may be only a street away from the campus but it does make a difference.

I have 17 hours of classes, its going to be fukin crazy

But hey, I’m in Austin, one of the best cities. I should have the time for myself. The only thing that I get tired of is walking everywhere and how far it is. But hey, good exercise is a good health mind. Don’t forget that! I am not even sure why I was writing this in the first place. I guess it is just an update of what this week has to offer. My weeks and months are going to consist

Who ever you are, what ever you are doing- I hope that you have great rest of the year. Be it college, work, highschool, home life- whatever applies to you.

H

Goodies

Guess What I GOTT

Most people don’t know this about me but…

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE to shop!

Although I am cautious to say that I am a SHOP-A-HOLIC. I do buy things but I buy them with reason and with thought. I used to buy things for no reason or purpose. Now I buy with meaning.

  • NEED IT
  • USE IT
  •  or GIVE IT SO SOMEONE AS A GIFT

Those are my requirements, and of course if I can afford, it. I do not shop all the time and when I do I try to donate back to my local thrift store. Or I buy at thrift store. SALE is a necessity for me. Because if individual things cost more than 25 dollars, then I can just wait until the sale comes around. Sales are the best.

But back to the subtitle…Ive come under some items that I was so excited about.

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Walking

 

Special times are always

And too surreal that I want to bite my cheek off

or fall down the stairs

Just to wake myself from this dream.

 

And while we walk on the side walks

I can see you look at me

And the days are burning our skin.

 

The suns gets in my eyes

but I can still see yours brighter.Image result for sunlight and sidewalk aesthetic

H

 

SOTW #15

GOOOOOOD Afternoon!

For this weeks SOTW here is a little taste of the artist CUCO. Who is an 18 year old Chicano artist. I may have mention about on of his songs a long time ago. The one I a currently listening to is

Lover Is A Day

There is other songs but this one is always on my mind.

Last night my boyfriend told me that CUCO is coming to Austin, Texas in October. And of course…I want to go!

I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe week, my prayers are out to my fellow Texans during Hurricane Harvey.

If you have any music recommendations PLEASE let me know!

Give it a listen, give music a chance.

H

What Do you Want to Do With Your Life?

I have been circling a question through my head. It is the one question that we all face in our coming adult years. What do you want to do?

That question can apply to a lot of meanings. What do you want to do right now? What do you want to do in four years? What do you want to do with yourself? 

What do you want to BE?

I do and do not have an answer to that question. All that I know is that I want to be doing something what is from my decision. I want to be able to give myself my own options and I am thinking through a college perspective. I want an apartment, I want to have money or some sort of income, I want an internship, and I want a career that I picked. And so far I am currently working on those things.

The reason why I am writing about this now is because today I got an email from professor I won’t no loner have since I changed my major. So I had to explain to them that I was not going to do their class again for this fall. I also had a talk to my boyfriend about what he wants to do after the four years. Whether or not to do another career choice added on to what he already wants to do.

And that made me think.

What do I want to do when I get to that point of my life?

Right now I changed to be only a English Major. I also added a teaching certificate for the future. But now that I think about it I don’t want to get that certificate and be done with my career. I want to WRITE. I love to write so much and I want to write books. I just don’t know what or where to start. I love poetry but I also want to practice my prose. Not only do I want to be a creative writer but I also want to be a versatile one, where I can write articles and express opinions and issues and reviews. I want to be the best I can be at writing. It is my own way of express and enjoyment of who I am as a person, what my voice is trying to say.

I do and I don’t know what is going to happen.

But I do know that what I’m doing now I want to work hard at it.

What do you think? Where do you think you are in your life? Do you know what you want to do?

Much Love and Support

H

 

SOTW #14

Newest song of the week comes from a soundtrack of a movie called Inherent Vice directed by Paul Thomas Anderson. I may have talked about this before, and I seen this movie a while ago but the song never fails.

Amethyst by Johnny Green Wood

From the moment I heard this song I fell in love with it, it really is something beautiful.

Give it a listen, give music a chance.

H

 

Hey, Where You Been?

Hello Everyone,

so it has been about two weeks since I have posted anything and it’s because I been caught up with enjoying the last few days in Japan to arriving back home in the states. Lately I am tired and scrambling about moving back to Austin and other paper documents that I don’t feel like thinking about. The only thing that anyone wants to do is just lay down all day.

I am definitely lacking good sleep. Where I am no one ever really lets me sleep well. It is also hot in my room and the light from the window is too strong. I will say that I did get to stay in bed till 2:30 with the exception of people calling me to ask if I was okay because of how late I slept. I just want to freaking sleep with no bother for once. Literally I am laying down “wishing” I could fall asleep.

But I want to get back at consistency. I am pretty drained and where I am right now I lack inspiration and motivation. Even my happiness goes down because of the negative energy in my house. I do have a lot in my mind but what better way to get through it than to write about it for express it in poetry and music.

But hey on a good note…there is internet and cable in this house! After 6-7 years of not having any connection to the cable-interent world, I finally have access.

Funny though…

I only have a week left in my hometown till I move into my new apartment!

So enjoy it while it lasts.

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